time warp

If I had to relive a single day in my life it would be the day I understood what choice was. In my earlier years I didn't care or bother with making or not making a decisions based on how people would feel. Now that I care about the consequences and how they affect others I feel like I'm held back because of it. If I could go back I could change how I act today, I wouldn't be penalized for putting others before myself. I wouldn’t be placed on the outside of things for trying to be considerate of others and in the outcome of my actions. It is in my defense of others that I am forced to concede to systems rules and regulations for I feel that if I do not up hold the rules how can I ask others to. The toughest part of being a considerate person is being unable to truly excel at anything for in doing so I over shadow others achievements. By putting myself second to others I am forced into more and more complicated situations and it is because of this that I must avoid others. If I could go back to the day that I found my actions had consequence and stopped myself from learning the truth I would be normal.